-To leave or to stay... ...-

She knew that she had went thru lots and she finally knew what's growing up... to forgive and to forget... Many a time, she tried to do soul-searching, whether or not her life is spent usefully or not... And whether or not her love that is being return... She has live a blissful life cos she knows lots of good peeps, whose always there for her. Sometimes, she could hardly see her own reflections... And here some thing about she thought recently:

She like him. Or rather, she loves him wholeheartedly. For who he is and not. It really has been a good imaginations or rather illusions. For her to know him. For 2 years, she hasn't notice him. Not his skills that charmed her. But his smile* =)) that ever-lasting one. She somehow don't know how she got into these mess. But all she wants is to see his smile and she indulge in it. He tingles up her spines whenever he is to smile. Just a smile and sight of him. Is that call LOVE? She wishes to be with him. But think it's hopeless and useless.

Sometimes, she gets really restless. And distracted by his sight suddenly. But had to keep reminding herself that she cant indulge into it and had to stay focus on the task that she is given to do. He is living in his own world, happily. Probably his arms on another girl. She just wants the best of him, and most importantly, to be happy. =)) From that, she is certained that she loves him.

She smiles sweetly at his silly jokes. Although, it's not humorous she still laugh and giggled. Not at his silly jokes but *him*. And *L-O-V-E just flashes into her head... Receiting *I DON'T LIKE HIM. NO I LOVE HIM. NO I CAN'T. I CAN'T. I REALLY CAN'T. and WHAT THE HACK AM I DOING?!* She runs off. Thinking that she shouldnt have indulge into it too much. She avoided him. Just when their eyes met*, She looked away. Thinking that it's hopeless and useless. Athough, she felt slight happy, but she always get things right back into her mind. Thinking that it's just one of her wishful thoughts. NO! she don't wishes to talk about it anymore...

It's still love. Whether or not, it's being accepted. *LO0VE?*